I had been meaning to post these photos of Ramona months ago. Currently her bangs cover her eyes that some how seem even bluer. She has learned many new 'tricks' and finally says mommy. When I look at these, I am in awe at how much changes in just 2 and a half months. I start kicking myself, because I have always been one to anticipate the future (which lends to a lot of unwanted anxiety) and now I am beginning to worry about how fast my life seems to be passing. I guess I haven't quite found the happy medium between the future and past, which is why living in the present is always a goal I am working towards. Naturally, some days are better than others... and the last few days have been good. I am sitting on the couch watching 'Dancing with the Stars' (our family home evening for the last few weeks) wishing I could bottle some of Ramona's insane energy and somehow give it to myself.
Conference was this weekend, and with it came a lot of new goals and optimism. Michael and I stayed up late last night, talking about the things that inspired us most and what we can change in our lives. We both agreed that we wanted each day to be filled with purpose. For that to happen, I need to bust out my daily planner again and figure out how to manage my time much more wisely. Which we all know, I struggle with. Also, we really need to tackle mornings. Because mommy the grouch isn't exactly what I want to paint in Ramona's memories. So I am adding that to my list of things to work on.
Most importantly, I just want to be a good mom to Ramona, and a better wife to Michael. He has selflessly taken on the daily task of dishes more times than I can count the last few weeks, and braved one too many laundry piles. In an effort to not let myself feel guilty for the support, and help, I am trying to just feel gracious. I think that's why things have been so good. If only I could keep it up!
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